Salam..
Ok,it's been quite a time i'm not updating this bloggie.Since it's been a while I've been away from writing a blog.
Alright,just forget about the subject.
First of all,it had been a HELL of this week,so many things happened at one time,i mean BAD THINGS happened.Firstly,my midsem result,was the worst of all result I never had,I was so suprised [wait,there's not the right word,shocked,bombshell] is the correct word to describe my result.I was completely 100% shocking over my result,I never had this such a bad grades in my entire whole life.So,needless to say,after I took my result,I gone to my friend's room,Aida.At there,I calm down myself with her help,I was so being grateful for having a good friend beside me,motivating me to pursue what I want in faundation..
After on and on and on on....it makes me thinking why does this has to be me? In fact,before taking the result,I surrended earlier,because I knoe I wud not get my-dream-result.It was just,my attitude was probably the strong reason I am becoming weak.My attitude gone lazy,comfortable-zone,even my mum said i'm lacking of concentration.
The other thing is,I often had a row with my dad/mum.I dunno,it's not my intention being a rude to them,seriously,I didn't mean to,all i want is a peaceful,harmony,someone who can guide me,not BLAME ME.I guess something is wrong with me,of course I love my parents as much as other kids did.It's just soooooo complicated to say..My relationship between them just complicated,I keep getting hate myself for hating them.Perhaps,tht's one of the reason I didn't make it.My teacher once said to me earlier,"the key for success is the bless from your parents,barakah" and I always hold the key in a way for success,but now..since i'm entering pasum,everything turning upside down,i can't find the right path,i was totally lost..I dunno what to do..I'm becoming rebellious each day..huhhh..I'm becoming a quite person there,dunno wht to say,wht to joke..everytime I heard someone made a joke,I was like -,-! ..huhhh..jasmira oh jasmira..where's the old you? Am I changed that much? I need the old me,the nice one,the good one,the hardworking one,ambitious..
I asked Allah to help me..but i am still searching what's behind all these..I hope someday,oneday,I'll be the previous me.please..I begging..
After all,after had so much thinking,I've realised,my parents and my family is the only precious gift from Allah,why would I was them like that? I shud have being more grateful cause I still had a parents who still cares a lot about me? why would I hate them fr not fulfilling my needs? I don't wannna be a spoil brat who's only think materialistic.huhh,no no,i won't be like that.I guess I had almost everything catchy gadgets that other teen out there desire..which i dun want to list out here..coz u'll be expect I am snobbish person.hehe..
Ok,from now on,wht things shud I start first to become A NEW ME..?
I shud get move on now..or else,I will be stay behind where everyone had keep forward..
Upd8 ler.. T.T.F.N.
.jasz.
