Saturday, September 11, 2010

Tabahkan hati!!



[Crying] Just now,td belajar dengan abg pasal physics..Ya Allah tabahkan la hati hamba mu ini..I realised,ini la balasan nye,org yg pandai cakap tp xpandai otak mcm aku ni ha..padan muka! da bape kali aku kene 'bodoh,bengap,stupid,idiot,shit,doggol,dodol etc..' ngn abg aku td.sal la aku ni lembap sgt otak nk berjalan ha? aihs,truk gilerrr td kene brainwash ngn abg,bagus jugak..org dok sakan raya,aku kene chlorox freee2 ngn abg time blaja fizik..chlorox+whitener skalik..giler la,br aku taw,fizik ni x de r ssh,kene paham konsep,konsep vektor yg shud be aku da expert tu pn aku x reti nk jwp td..seb bek abg aku refresh balek..tetibe aku rase nk nangis,[mmg da nanges da pon,sapa tahan kene maki truk2 mcm tu] aihh,ini mesti dosa2 yg pnah aku wat ngn parents aku nih membuatkan aku lambat pickup..aku start blaja fizik dr kul 2 sampai 3.30,itu pn br faham konsep free body diagram ngn vektor skali..aku x tawu la nape aku lambat akhir2 ni..semangat tu da ada,cuma,entah la,,aku sendiri pun rase pelik..aduhaiii..truk nye kene ngn abg td...rase cm terbakarrrrr je dga ayat2 die td...'lembap tahap maut la kau nih,x leh slow lagi keee?' ape2 pun die kate bagus utk membuat aku berfikir..jgn jd malas sgt nk berfikir..huh,aku force jugak diri aku td,at last alhamdulillah aku dpt jwp soklan klon exam dlm buku dr.zahrah tu,br bley tido..huh..gilo tul..dh kul 4 pagi ni aku post...so,esok pagi,aku kne study fizik lagi sampai aku paham..dan kene maki lagi tahap maut..ngn esok aku nk study math..arghh,aku nk jadi dr. kene rajin! ko x nak 4flat ke jas? ko nk jd org x berguna sepanjang idup ko? come back down to reality la..talk less work more~! k la,aku pn da nantok plus stress..sok pg kene bgn awl2..
Nyte/morning..
salam..

.jasz.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Raya Raya Raya







Salam..huhu, today is the day where all the muslims around the world are waiting for! hehehe,ok,raya morning,I wake up UNUSUAL time which was exact 7 am,[i noe,it's kind a late ryte?] quickly i took wudhuk to pray for subuh,eventhou it's already 7 in the morning. :D.Then,my darling, wafiq also had woken up,crawling around..[this boy really makes me laugh,so funny dearie with his innocent acts] What a damn cold morning since it's raining ..but i still force myself to take a shower,sunat aidilfitri..and wore my new purple kurung and went to pray sunat aidilfitri at the nearby mosque.Hm,nothing much special for today actually,not many events happened today,I guess in many many Raya in my entire life,I shud give this year award as The Most Dull Raya Ever..I noe,it sounds quite proper to say it,but that's the fact. Sorry ma,i didn't mean to,but that's the reality,isn't it? I can tell apart from my mother's expression,she was feeling sad about this raya,because this was the first raya we've been celebrated since ever in KL,apart from that also,this was first time for her having a hard time facing a new situation,since her parents were passed away recently.Besides that,the most sad part is,we've no relatives anymore.Actually,we do have relatives,i mean my mother's siblings a.k.a my aunties and uncles,but the truth is,there was a tragedy behind our family history,that no one can tell makes the connection lost.So,meaning that,we don't have relatives to visit.Sounds so pathetic aite..

Well,what can i say,that's what we called life,life still goes on,no matter what.I felt sympathy towards my mum,i felt sorry for her for having such a bloody unappreciated,jealousy,stabbers siblings.I knew from her heart,she still does love her brother and sisters,and still hold the old phrase ' air yang di cincang takkan putus' I know in Islam,we must forgive others and forget the past.Yeah,it's true,that's we're doing right now,forgetting the past.. However,dun worry mum,you still have your kids who love you till no ending. :) Hm,ok,let's get back to the subject,most of today,I ate till full,played with little cute wafiq,slept,and repeat the same.Until now,sitting on a bed+blogging.Hm..During this a few days past,I didn't get in touch with my books,they still lay down there,begging from their owner to touch n read them.Ughhh jas! u said u wanted to change right during this holiday? so have you? CHANGE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!! ughhh,time is ticking fast,so u have to run to catch up those what left behind! Ok2,tonight,I'mma going to start doing some revision,insyaALLAH i'll doing my tutorial homework.There loads of them! goshhh.. tomrrow is going to be a busy day,since me and my parents will leave to melaka to visit my late grandparents.and old folks relatives down the hometown. I have this wise idea,from now on,insyaAllah,i'll be hard to write this blog more often,in a way to improve my English skill writing for my MUET test which will be dated a couple of months from today.I also not expecting people will come to my blog and read my updated post,because nothing much interesting about my post unlike any other girls' blog,which I had read through their blogs.I can tell there's differene between my blog and theirs,mine is more limited to my personal story and open views/opinion,and pretty much boring about it.hehe..Huhu..I also practicing my speaking skill when I'm talking to my close friends.:D,I know it sounds quite lame,but hey! that's what we called learning ryte? I admit that,seldomly I get embarrased whem i'm speaking in english because I made millions of grammar mistakes in my sentences,but one of my friend had told me that,it's okay to be laughed,as long as u're trying and just be confidence with it,then it's okay.Don't bother too much of people will gonna say to you,because they are not going to help you anyway,aite? InsyaAllah I will try my best to pursue it.

I hope i don't get cold feet in MUET speaking test,and stammered in front of unknown bunch of people later.It's okay jas,as long as u've hard work for it,let Allah decide what's best for you then. :)

T.T.F.N. Will upd8 l8er..

.jasz.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Benjamin Franklin's System

  1. Temperance . Eat not to dullness; drink not to elevation.
  2. Silence. Speak not but what may benefit others or yourself; avoid trifling conversation.
  3. Order. Let all your things have their places; let each part of your business have its time.
  4. Resolution. Resolve to perform what you ought; perform without fail what you resolve.
  5. Frugality. Make no expense but to do good to others or yourself; i.e., waste nothing.
  6. Industry. Lose no time; be always employed in something useful; cut off all unnecessary actions.
  7. Sincerity. Use no hurtful deceit; think innocently and justly, and, if you speak, speak accordingly.
  8. Justice. Wrong none by doing injuries, or omitting the benefits that are your duty.
  9. Moderation. Avoid extremes; forbear resenting injuries so much as you think they deserve.
  10. Cleanliness. Tolerate no uncleanliness in body, clothes, or habitation.
  11. Tranquility. Be not disturbed at trifles, or at accidents common or unavoidable.
  12. Chastity. Rarely use venery but for health or offspring, never to dullness, weakness, or the injury of your own or another’s peace or reputation.

Benjamin Franklin’s system was based on the principle of replacing old-bad habits with new-good habits. The key word being habits. When motivation and desire fade away or take a leave of absence our habits automate us in a preprogrammed direction. The question is are you programmed for success or failure? Allow me to steer you in the right direction.


Let's do it!!!!!!!!!

Start Over

Salam..
Ok,it's been quite a time i'm not updating this bloggie.Since it's been a while I've been away from writing a blog.
Alright,just forget about the subject.
First of all,it had been a
HELL of this week,so many things happened at one time,i mean BAD THINGS happened.Firstly,my midsem result,was the worst of all result I never had,I was so suprised [wait,there's not the right word,shocked,bombshell] is the correct word to describe my result.I was completely 100% shocking over my result,I never had this such a bad grades in my entire whole life.So,needless to say,after I took my result,I gone to my friend's room,Aida.At there,I calm down myself with her help,I was so being grateful for having a good friend beside me,motivating me to pursue what I want in faundation..
After on and on and on on....it makes me thinking why does this has to be me? In fact,before taking the result,I surrended earlier,because I knoe I wud not get my-dream-result.It was just,my attitude was probably the strong reason I am becoming weak.My attitude gone lazy,comfortable-zone,even my mum said i'm lacking of concentration.

The other thing is,I often had a row with my dad/mum.I dunno,it's not my intention being a rude to them,seriously,I didn't mean to,all i want is a peaceful,harmony,someone who can guide me,not
BLAME ME.I guess something is wrong with me,of course I love my parents as much as other kids did.It's just soooooo complicated to say..My relationship between them just complicated,I keep getting hate myself for hating them.Perhaps,tht's one of the reason I didn't make it.My teacher once said to me earlier,"the key for success is the bless from your parents,barakah" and I always hold the key in a way for success,but now..since i'm entering pasum,everything turning upside down,i can't find the right path,i was totally lost..I dunno what to do..I'm becoming rebellious each day..huhhh..I'm becoming a quite person there,dunno wht to say,wht to joke..everytime I heard someone made a joke,I was like -,-! ..huhhh..jasmira oh jasmira..where's the old you? Am I changed that much? I need the old me,the nice one,the good one,the hardworking one,ambitious..

I asked Allah to help me..but i am still searching what's behind all these..I hope someday,oneday,I'll be the previous me.please..I begging..

After all,after had so much thinking,I've realised,my parents and my family is the only precious gift from Allah,why would I was them like that? I shud have being more grateful cause I still had a parents who still cares a lot about me? why would I hate them fr not fulfilling my needs? I don't wannna be a
spoil brat who's only think materialistic.huhh,no no,i won't be like that.I guess I had almost everything catchy gadgets that other teen out there desire..which i dun want to list out here..coz u'll be expect I am snobbish person.hehe..

Ok,from now on,wht things shud I start first to become A NEW ME..?

I shud get move on now..or else,I will be stay behind where everyone had keep forward..
Upd8 ler..
T.T.F.N.

.jasz.